trapped, trapped, trapped
breathless
i
can't
breathe

a song loops in my head
the dreary tune
of some indie song
that weasled its way into my head
stuck in a loop,
playing like the background music to this emotional scene of my own movie.

i can't help it
i sob,
i choke on my
tears and scream silently into my blankets.

help me, help me, help me
i
can't
breathe again

my heart screams i want to get off my bed and leave the prison of my room
but
who was i kidding?
my skin rejected the touch of another
my pride rejected the cajoles of my mother.

my prison was not my room
my prison was me and i refused to let myself out.

please, please, please
i
can't-