Lol I’m not good **** mental health I feel like **** and I love it Getting every high I can find Anything for a little dopamine ** I could literally take one more pill I have them. I just have to take it. Need permission to take it And I’d be okay for a little while Maybe a few weeks It won’t last but it’s a start Mmm I feel like self sabotage Idk. Just for fun Cause why the **** not?? We both know this isn’t going anywhere You’re not going anywhere Lol You’re not loved Don’t you ever ******* forget it You’ve got the mental structure of an addict And you don’t even care All your skills are basically useless You’ll just be another piece of the corporate machine You won’t make a life for yourself You won’t be happy eventually You’ll take drugs until you feel okay But it’ll never ever be enough You’ll find someone to **** And it will leaving you wanting You’ll make them all turn on you It won’t be too hard now Your life is nothing You are nothing You’re not dead because you’re a ******* coward And because you know they’ll cry Ughhh why would they cry There’s no loss No change I won’t leave much behind Your lives will be fine They’ll be fine It’ll be fine You’ll be fine I’m fine I’m really not okay I know that I hear it in the back of my mind Over and over The whisper behind the noise Waiting patiently for a little quiet And it won’t leave me the **** alone Just leave me alone ******* it My head needs to calm down I’ve gotta calm down But my body is calm. Mind is racing but the body feels nothing Should I be feeling something?? I must’ve made it all up This isn’t about me Just some story A fantasy in my head Some world where someone else lives A life more interesting than mine Even if it hurts her it’s better than nothing Pain is so ******* easy man Bleeding is easy But why This isn’t in my head This isn’t mine It’s not mine It’s not mine It’s not mine It’s not mine I’m fine I’m fine What the **** I’m fine Why is this in my head It’s not right This isn’t right ****