Oct 2020
Tell me how it ended up like this?
Because I’m still trying to maneuver my way to breaking down the pieces of where it all started to go wrong.
Going back past the conversations we exchanged in my head to see the signs you’ve been hinting at me
But, I just can’t seem to figure it out
Because either you were way too good at hiding it or maybe you never wanted me to know in the first place
Or perhaps it began to go downhill the moment where I brushed things off and from then on slowly, but surely I couldn’t decipher the things you’ve been communicating to me
The secret language we used to share, the stares we had when our eyes meet and the slight brush on our arm that used to give me butterflies
Overtime slowly started to fade away
And instead it was replaced with a brick of walls separating us apart despite the fact we were once there in the same room
Maybe we both knew that someday this day would come, where it would all come to an end
And we were both trying to ignore it by not letting things escalate when we fought for the fear of things ending right there and then
Little did we know by shrugging things off it just piled to more tension and that thought behind our mind “what if it’s better if we broke it off?” but then feeling guilty for it because it wasn’t that easy to let go after years of happy memories made together
Also, the fear we both shared of having to start all over again and readjusting to a new change of pace because we got too used to the same routine
Though eventually all the built up tension and unsaid words finally got the best of us, realizing that us staying together only led up for the relationship to be toxic and insufferable
After hours of talking that had a lot of yelling and bickering we have finally agreed we were both in the wrong and the last kissed we shared, we knew to finally call it quits
Because that kiss and the embrace that came afterwards with tears from the both of us, we just knew we didn’t see each other in our own futures and mutually understanding we are far better apart than together
Because I’m still trying to maneuver my way to breaking down the pieces of where it all started to go wrong.
Going back past the conversations we exchanged in my head to see the signs you’ve been hinting at me
But, I just can’t seem to figure it out
Because either you were way too good at hiding it or maybe you never wanted me to know in the first place
Or perhaps it began to go downhill the moment where I brushed things off and from then on slowly, but surely I couldn’t decipher the things you’ve been communicating to me
The secret language we used to share, the stares we had when our eyes meet and the slight brush on our arm that used to give me butterflies
Overtime slowly started to fade away
And instead it was replaced with a brick of walls separating us apart despite the fact we were once there in the same room
Maybe we both knew that someday this day would come, where it would all come to an end
And we were both trying to ignore it by not letting things escalate when we fought for the fear of things ending right there and then
Little did we know by shrugging things off it just piled to more tension and that thought behind our mind “what if it’s better if we broke it off?” but then feeling guilty for it because it wasn’t that easy to let go after years of happy memories made together
Also, the fear we both shared of having to start all over again and readjusting to a new change of pace because we got too used to the same routine
Though eventually all the built up tension and unsaid words finally got the best of us, realizing that us staying together only led up for the relationship to be toxic and insufferable
After hours of talking that had a lot of yelling and bickering we have finally agreed we were both in the wrong and the last kissed we shared, we knew to finally call it quits
Because that kiss and the embrace that came afterwards with tears from the both of us, we just knew we didn’t see each other in our own futures and mutually understanding we are far better apart than together
I haven’t posted and written in a year or so. Forgive me if I may sound off? Though, I’m glad I wrote this even if it’s short. Hope you all enjoy!
