thought you would be different
thats my bad
let lust **** with my decisions
also my bad
with all the issues hidden
i never looked back
trusted my intuition
and my "better half"
currently lonely and bedridden
sickened by your laugh

a couple months go by
i trust myself again
say that its alright
to just be friends
ignore every reason why
i regret letting you in
in the first place but i
don't wanna sink under again
i apologize
for letting it get under my skin
your toothy smile
morphs into a knowing grin

communication slips
find ourselves in a familiar place
i know your little tricks
yet trust a familiar face
you wanna make the trip
i guess that thats okay
doing more than you ever did
and i guess that should feel great
but you lean in for a kiss
breaking every rule i had in place
try to pretend i don't feel sick
till i can finally get away