Jun 2013
I think I'll always wonder if it was love... Especially on my end.
I think I'll alway want to ask you if you give us a second thought the way I do all the time
I think I'll always ponder if timing had been better, would we have been?
I think I know that these questions will remained unanswered
I think I know some of them were dreams I must've had along the way
I think you were real at one point
I know I felt something from you when you looked into my eyes
I know it because I felt it too
I think as much as I want to hate you, I never will
I know I've gotta let all this go
I know I need to ignore the thoughts that keep me up at night
I think deep down I've known, I should've let you go
I know chasing fantasies will end in the same place you started
I think I'm afraid that if I let go I'll know it's really over
I know I'm afraid to erase our old messages because, it feels like I'm erasing us
I think I know who erased who first
And I know who cries over that
I wonder if you ever just looked at me and just felt relief
I worry I depended on what I thought you felt to get by
And I think what you're feeling now is a knife in my back
I want to know what it was that turned you away
I'm over pondering why you choose her and not me
But than I think, it took you so long to let go of me
I wish you weren't as selfish as I know you are
I know I want to be half as selfish of you
I wonder than if I could finally open my hand and scream aloud til the tears stopped rolling down my face
I think I wish you knew of this pain I'm trapped in
I know this push and pull didnt work for you.. And it's not for me
I think one day I'll be done with all this
I think I'm sure I'll never hate you
But, I know the girl writing this, won't be here waiting for you
I think maybe then you'll begin to ponder where I might be
I think maybe you will wish you could take another look at the door you closed so long ago
I know I can't know for sure
I think I'll always hope that you might
I think I'll always wonder&hope; what we had back then was true
I think I'll always....
I think I'll alway want to ask you if you give us a second thought the way I do all the time
I think I'll always ponder if timing had been better, would we have been?
I think I know that these questions will remained unanswered
I think I know some of them were dreams I must've had along the way
I think you were real at one point
I know I felt something from you when you looked into my eyes
I know it because I felt it too
I think as much as I want to hate you, I never will
I know I've gotta let all this go
I know I need to ignore the thoughts that keep me up at night
I think deep down I've known, I should've let you go
I know chasing fantasies will end in the same place you started
I think I'm afraid that if I let go I'll know it's really over
I know I'm afraid to erase our old messages because, it feels like I'm erasing us
I think I know who erased who first
And I know who cries over that
I wonder if you ever just looked at me and just felt relief
I worry I depended on what I thought you felt to get by
And I think what you're feeling now is a knife in my back
I want to know what it was that turned you away
I'm over pondering why you choose her and not me
But than I think, it took you so long to let go of me
I wish you weren't as selfish as I know you are
I know I want to be half as selfish of you
I wonder than if I could finally open my hand and scream aloud til the tears stopped rolling down my face
I think I wish you knew of this pain I'm trapped in
I know this push and pull didnt work for you.. And it's not for me
I think one day I'll be done with all this
I think I'm sure I'll never hate you
But, I know the girl writing this, won't be here waiting for you
I think maybe then you'll begin to ponder where I might be
I think maybe you will wish you could take another look at the door you closed so long ago
I know I can't know for sure
I think I'll always hope that you might
I think I'll always wonder&hope; what we had back then was true
I think I'll always....
