Today I looked in the mirror and I didn't recognize the face staring back at me with its cold and tired eyes purple bags and messy hair didn't sleep too well last night lying eyes wide open in my bed with no ******* end in sight...
now my demons chase me in the dark running through my ****** up head screaming out the hurtful things that some of you have said no matter how much I try I can't rid them from my mind so i scream and scream but nothing comes out...
and it all just feels like... I wanna live but I wanna die I'm trapped again inside my mind Just give a sec I'll be alright Just give me a minute and I'll be fine but if you really know me... then you know I'm lying...
tossing and turning in my sheets can't seem to catch my breath sweat is pouring down my back but I'm still as cold as death close my eyes and count to ten try to calm my thoughts i left my heart wide open again and i guess this was the cost
i hurt myself again tonight tho i said i wouldn't tried to make myself drop the knife... but i just couldn't and my parents won't stop yelling they're fighting cuz of me tho I know that I'm not worth it i just wish that I could breathe... and it all just feels like...
and it all just feels like... I wanna live but I wanna die I'm trapped again inside my mind Just give a sec I'll be alright Just give me a minute and I'll be fine but if you really know me... then you know I'm lying...
im not alright i wanna be fine just wish i could shut off my mind and get to the point where i cross the line and im okay again... but will that ever happen?
and it all just feels like... and it all just feels like... I wanna live but I wanna die I'm trapped again inside my mind Just give a sec I'll be alright Just give me a minute and I'll be fine but if you really know me... then you know I'm lying...
yeah thats what it feels like
i wrote this after a friend gave me the idea.. the parents part is past tense but I've been there.. all of this is something I've felt at one point or continue to feel