I'm mentaly feeling the pain, wrong motivation drives me insane. I look at myself and see failures. No ones hates me as much as I hate myself. Always joking, sinking potential so I'm not floating. I plead, try to succeed, tempted to bleed, why is this happening to me? Felt so ugly, leave me be.
The world goes against me. I've lost confidence but gained the weight. I'm told it's never too late. But mentally I break.