Each year I promise Promise that this one will be better than the last That it will be different There will be a change. I will be the one who will drop the pebble in the water To cause all the positive ripples. Yet when it comes to the time Someone knocks the pebble out of my hand onto the land. Usually it's anxiety sometimes depression Other times it's ID I keep waiting to give myself hope But all I give Is the hopeful betrayal Which always leads to denial