Redemption in my eyes for the sins of my past Dwelling still though in my troubled memories The world around me spinning so fast I can't keep balance and fall into troubled seas
Going under but if just for a moment I feel The weight of consciousness and the world combined Inky blackness surrounds me; my silence, sealed The answers to what troubles me I cannot find
I drown deep in moments a long time past Under the weight of my own memories The strength to fight back is leaving me fast I pray to her to leave me be... Please
We will meet again one day, but not now These distorted visions of my past overwhelm The answers I have yet to find and know not how Though not today nor that day long past shall I leave this realm
Five months past my last suicide attempt and things are still really hard. Recovery is a slow and sluggish road, but it needs to be done.