i met a boy
he looked like everything i want right now
he liked dominos
he liked taking risks
he is dumb
he said
he liked me
i talked to a boy
he was all creative and idiotic, yellow and blue
he wanted to talk
he tried to talk
he and I read together
he said
he liked me
i sat with a boy
he was all cricket and fans
he wanted my number
he tried getting my number
he left
he said
he liked me
i got a text from a boy
he was all mainstream youtube, gangster rap and football
he is a golden boy
riding off into the sunset
without the care of the world
with someone
but
not
me
he said
he liked me
i maybe understood a boy
sluggish smile, innocent eyes, vulgar tongue, hate for dank, unfulfilled promises, sugary vows of freedom and love, switching sports, introduction to the family before dawn and introduction to the friends at midnight
he said
he loved me
i loved a boy
even if he loved TikTok rap more than me, loved action movies more than me, loved hide and seek more than me, loves other girls more than me
i like a boy
he probably disabled his account, he won't do that to me. he is fine, i know that
karma is it?
well fuck it
i want you back, fucking send him back, i'd crack my knuckles, hold your hand, grip your fingers, turn them over, curl them around, make a bloody clump of flesh, broken bones and promises
i wanna be yours
2 days after your birthday, pumpkin skies and smog
we talked on a crisp noon, your mom wasn't home, threw adorable nothings at each other, told things we've been hiding for too long
we stayed till spring when the sweet love had started to blossom.
he said
he was sorry
and
i didn't get to say anything.