Dear [Deadname],
It's been a while since I wrote. Things have gotten better. Not drastically, but small bits. We're still together, so that's good. You'll be gone next year, that scares me. We're close. Very close. That's not a bad thing right now, but it might be later. I'm scared to lose, not only you but also myself. The next year will be tough, that's a fact. This year already is, and I'm doing it for the second time. You make it better. It's still not okay, but it's alright if you're there. I'm scared for you aswell. You, alone at college? It's scary. You're grown and you can take care of yourself but the idea doesn't always sound perfect. I'm gonna miss you. A lot. I'm gonna miss so many things we take for granted now. Hugging you in the break, or hanging out after school. You won't be that far away, but a couple classrooms already seems like a year. I love you. I love you so ******* much, and I'm scared. We'll be okay though, I got you.
Sincerely, me