i don't want to love
knowing that if i stick my head through
the shards will pierce me
and that every time i climb the mountain
it gets harder than it was before
that its harder to recover
and that those scars mean nothing
that they will never be avenged
i don't want to love
knowing that it hurts
but i don't want it to hurt
and that it happens to everyone
why do i even keep trying?
it all means nothing in the end
i will only loose
i hardly ever gain anyways
i don't want to love
knowing that to some people its just a game
in life it is only a game
i am the pawn in the game