Trapped in a time before a time before a time before,
Before all I feared in the future was what not how,
Before I had to be strong enough to wake up in darkness.
My déjà vu had got me thinking I was psychic.
Now my thoughts of the future, have got me sick, nostalgic
I am trapped in the now and I cant find comfort in my old ways, for I lost them.
I have failed to live without you, I don’t want to, I don’t know how to.
How can I leave for a slippery path without trends in my shoes
How can I live on when the only places I know have turn dark and cold
I paint my face to disguise my fear everyday I head to battle to survive
And when I lose, I’m alone in my sorrow now robbed solid of my pride
The wins leave me a mess for the only prize I really want is you..
I should fight to get you back, I need you here, I need you now
Come, sit lets just talk for a while, how have you been?
Do you miss me, don’t answer that. I said don’t say a word.
On cue, the air grows thick between us and you start to fade away
My screams are jailed in my mouth, I must be dumb to what’s truth
Of course you can’t be back, Am not strong enough to imagine you.
Tears roll down my cheeks, soak pillow, it’s like going to sleep in reverse.
Another day to fight, another day to try and find some other way to heal.
Just woke up from a dream, My dad was here, and he was only here to visit, I wanted home to stay or for him to at least be real. I miss my dad, I try to move on, i'm okay most times, but I am lost without him.