I've been in love with pills since I was thirteen
thinking they would cure me
heal me

she never did
she never gave me a hug
so I gave my teddy bear the hugs I wished

I hide the bottles in the most open space
they never catch me
I'm quiet like a ghost

things haven't been the same
I can't sleep right these days

I should've said something
every time I try
my mouth is filled sobs

in the mornings
I see the cracks
I'm breaking
one day I'll fall to the floor
crying like a baby

while I wait
I'll take another pill