Aug 2020
I hope I don't die tonight
I just don't feel right
I've had half a pint and I'm feeling not right
I had a xanax too, but it was split through the night
All in an effort to feel alright
But here I sit in plight
Knowing tomorrow I'll regret what I let happen tonight
Even if I feel good enough to run a mile in 5 minutes tomorrow, I know what I did tonight isn't right
I'm sorry brain and body
I know what I'm doing to you isn't right
I just don't feel right
I've had half a pint and I'm feeling not right
I had a xanax too, but it was split through the night
All in an effort to feel alright
But here I sit in plight
Knowing tomorrow I'll regret what I let happen tonight
Even if I feel good enough to run a mile in 5 minutes tomorrow, I know what I did tonight isn't right
I'm sorry brain and body
I know what I'm doing to you isn't right
I've been doing really well not drinking and tapering off xanax the past 6 months. Was pretty disappointed in myself for slipping up and getting drunk, and doing it with my nightly xanax dose. In case anyone doesn't know, apparently you can die from mixing the two. Been under so much stress, I'm honestly surprised I didn't slip up sooner. This just further confirmed that I can't have a lot available to drink when I'm under extreme stress, because I end up drinking too much since I feel like if I drink enough, I can escape my anxiety for a night. Also, this was written drunk so, that's also clearly not true haha.
