Aug 2020
Everytime I struggle,
there's no one;
nobody to calm
my worries.
no body to hug me.
Everytime I drop hints,
they can't seem to decipher;
they forgot how
and what to ask.
not a single one.
Everytime I binge,
stuff my mouth with food;
the shame would crawl
too fast until I finished.
I hope you're at peace.
Everytime I recall
all the horrible things;
every single one of them
forgets that I am dying.
that I can die tonight.
Everytime I overcome,
they would show up
when the struggles over.
who wants to be part of it?
none.
-A.X
there's no one;
nobody to calm
my worries.
no body to hug me.
Everytime I drop hints,
they can't seem to decipher;
they forgot how
and what to ask.
not a single one.
Everytime I binge,
stuff my mouth with food;
the shame would crawl
too fast until I finished.
I hope you're at peace.
Everytime I recall
all the horrible things;
every single one of them
forgets that I am dying.
that I can die tonight.
Everytime I overcome,
they would show up
when the struggles over.
who wants to be part of it?
none.
-A.X
I feel so alone and suddenly it felt like a part of me died. I struggle and cuddle myself to sleep without a person to lean on. I just hope that this pandemic ends because I badly need to undergo psychotherapy.
It's so sad that the only person that could listen to me and help me overcome is the ones that I can buy their services. Not the free ones, not the friends.
No one to count on, I must say the struggle is real.
It's so sad that the only person that could listen to me and help me overcome is the ones that I can buy their services. Not the free ones, not the friends.
No one to count on, I must say the struggle is real.
