perhaps we all want what we don't have- I, for example, despite the frayed nerves of anxiety defeated to depression and beaten to a cynic- am in love with optimism. will still kiss those shiny pictures sun day dust rays with taste. you- the stability, the happy, the I-would- live-forever--- revel in the aesthetic of the dark. the pain. the other side of beauty and the synonym of 'shattered.' all sadness is another form of love.