Grasping greedy claws for brilliance nicotine, alcohol, smoke trying to choke out brilliance through these substances variegated like a jangling ring of keys to an enlightened door. But the more I try to **** down each little chemical, I feel emptier, drained and my strained imagination leans on reality for support.
And I tell myself that there is always time, another tomorrow like a promise or an I.O.U. and that shining tomorrow will be so effortlessly new drenched in drugs and sweat and nostalgia and I'll be present and there and full, pulling on the sleeve of the almost known, the call that could reach my phone.
And tomorrow I'll be thin and weight as much as smoke. Tomorrow all those lies I spoke will be true, and my selfish wants will no longer be daunted by my crippling doubt. Tomorrow will be without error or pain or disappointment, or that same monotony. Tomorrow, that cool spring morning, will renew Trust me, and forget the truth.