I lay my open hands before thee
My dear, and Sovereign  God
I place my feet before thee
With nowhere else to run
Not hiding from my pain anymore
I cry out my sorrows and anger
For now my broken, calloused heart
Is unnoticeable, even to  me
I know the scriptures and all your names, it's not hard to believe
For all the times you've been there
I was constantly being deceived
My mind, my body, and my soul
They ache painfully to be renewed
But I must make a real- life changing choice to give my life to you
I have wronged so many times and done the unknown
But you know all my ***** secrets, Lord
And yet you keep me here
Safe, and blessed beyond measures,
And yet I am met with this great fear
A fear of not knowing where I am  going when I depart this earth
A fear of losing my life, to some ungrateful ****
A fear I can only hold, as a reminder of what's next(present in my girth)
To leave this world as I found it, only at it's best
To give, to share, and testify, my love for Christ does not rest
And even when I'm gone and no longer here, I hope that some remember
How faithfully I surrendered