I carry 40k words on my back
heavy and light

so much darkness
in different shades

I'm in a grey space

you thought I'd go back
so did I

you're the reason I cried so many nights
that's fine
I still love you so much

feels so good to be mature
even if I hear you speak with anger

one day
I'll tell you
(I know I won't)

you're in the dark

you should move out
I forget you like the toxic people
around you
everything is rotten

I'm out
I'm out
I remind myself
I can't be trapped with you anymore

you're still so big in my weak heart

I hope you don't hate me
it's okay of you do

I hate you too