Tossing and turning, the air so hot and humid;

No sound, but for the whirring of the fan.

My thoughts are so busy and take me to the future and also to the past,

I feel sadness then excitement, happiness, joy and it takes my breath away..

So many emotions fighting with each other it makes me dizzy,

I feel every beat of my heart, it pounds so hard I can see the rise and fall in my chest.

It aches for the ones I have loved and lost;

It aches for the new love I have found.

Laying here in my bed, I make peace with my emotions,

It is an honour and a privilege to have been able to love and be loved so completely.

Love is not a given in life, yet, I have been dealt the winning hand twice.

I finally feel content and safe and accept this new love that consumes me.