i felt something today
     i felt a small tickle of
                                                    contempt
    or
                  hope?

it was only tiny
    it didn't last long, but it was
                                  something
and
                                                       it shocked me
i'm not broken

        not quite yet
                                it gave me    the slightest feeling

of happiness
                                       it wasn't complete
               i'm not complete

i cant be
                 not for a little while longer

but i was okay today
        only okay