I wrote you so many poems. They’re all here as evidence. I couldn’t let you read them. I loved you so much. Depression is a cold and heartless thing. I tried to fight her while keeping you out of harms way. I couldn’t feel anything, just like I’ve said. I wanted to feel something. I even said pain would suffice.
A year later. You’ve hurt me so bad. I feel it all now. All the love. All the pain. I miss you so much. I wish I was strong enough to show you these when you were here with me.
I wish you would’ve talked to me before you picked up the gun. I wish you would’ve thought before you pulled the trigger. I wish a lot of things, A. But most of all, I wish you were still here on earth with me.