There was nothing I could do. I was a man now as of 4 hours and 22 minutes ago and thus needed to secure myself a job. I could no longer just sit in my room ******* and eat bowls of cereal and resign myself to nothing any longer, nor naively pursue a career in music that wasn't going to happen; I was talented but perhaps I didn't have the drive? I had to get a job. I had to 'do something', so I went online and found the first thing that popped up. It was Macys, a general clerk so I applied and of course the questionnaire was 3 pages and tested my aptitude. Did I have an IQ above room temperature? If so that'd make me a cashier, if not a boxboy. I ended up as a dressing room attendant. The interview was fine and was my first. I wore my dad's blue shirt and some shoes I stole a week previous since I didn't feel the need to buy shoes I'd likely be wearing once I rationalized. I sat in the waiting room and it was before social media and smart phones so I thumbed through some magazines for thirty minutes then was eventually called. The interviewer seated me in a plushy red throne, and he had a nice haircut. "So what brings you to Macy's" he said to me bluntly. "I like this store. I shop here a lot and feel like I'd be a good fit" which was a lie; I never in my life shopped there. " Okay, and tell me a time where you encountered a struggle, and how did you resolve it?" I had to think for a moment, actually several moments and we sat there in uncomfortable silence for what seemed minutes. I was nervous. "Ummm, a time I encountered a struggle and had to resolve it? Well there was a little dog that got hit in front of my house before, and all the kids were crying and I consoled them and performed CPR on that dog and he ended up surviving but died later in the hospital. and it was pretty traumatic and a lot of blood" "okay that sounds heartbreaking, but moreso an experience that relates to working in a retail store" "I used to sell cookies door to door" "Yes that seems more relevant" he said while marking his clipboard. And the interview went on and I felt for sure I blew it, but I shook his hand firmly like I'd always been told and looked him in the eye. "Thank you, I really appreciate the opportunity" I told him while exiting. always show gratitude they'd say; well I wasn't grateful and didn't want that job, but I read enough how-to's online. it was an act, an audition and I think I gave a good enough performance. A few days later I got the call and was told to come in for orientation. I was trapped. It was the beginning.
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