i wonder if you know what it's like to be them to have to carry your hands on the sides of your body because keeping them in the pocket of your hoodie would lead to speculation that you're carrying a weapon you're in no possession of eyes on you wherever you go warnings made over the radio demands from behind you "hands over your head where i can see them" the sound of incoming sirens cue a scene they're far too familiar with as you sit in the audience, row M, popcorn in your hand, watching the star in suspense “but officer I’m not carrying a weapon, look—“ … Boom. suspicion is justifiable for a bullet hole in their chest does that same rule apply to you? … i wonder if you know what it's like to be in the presence of another and sense the shift in their body as they do their best to distance themselves from you because apparently there's an imprint across your forehead that screams: DANGER ... you probably don't because it is you who shifts uncomfortably clutching a little tighter to your purse and wallet ... who was the first person who told you to stay away? … i wonder if you know what it feels like to have expectations already made for you they are nothing in comparison to the ones you are assigned at birth they are nothing like the expectations you are molded into as a child because unlike them, you are told you can accomplish anything you are told you can fight for what you believe in with no repercussions you are told you can become whoever you want to be and you never doubt it unlike you, they are the ones placed under the knees of blue in suffocation another byproduct of history the expectations placed on them are ones that have been running through the vines of their family tree ever since its seed was planted on this foreign soil ... they very same ones that deem them inferior lazy dangerous ... all attributes used to create a segregation amongst us people a definitive fine line that if one oversteps proclaiming unity and equity among us all prepare for the raise of a hand a baton enwrapped by fingers who are supposed to instill peace they've reigned terror on the same people they're assigned to protect a contradiction, wouldn't you agree? "Land of the Free" then why are so many of our people expected to succumb to oppression and dehumanization why'll the rest of us reside comfortably in our luxury and privilege? without worry of an invasion 8 shots released in deep sleep "wrong house" they said... but this is america right? ... i wonder if you've lived life being told you'll fall under the same pattern as your ancestors that there is no way of breaking the chain ... i wonder if you know what it feels like to be treated as a token everyone loves displaying for attention but when the moment comes to fight their truth ... that attention ceases to exist ... i wonder if you realize your duty in this fight for justice but if you don't i congratulate you ... you've lived a life safe and sound away from interrogation fear strictness alertness you've lived a life where the color of your skin does not predict your destiny it's formed a shield a layer that obliterates accusation gunshots abuse neglect and prejudice in its most destructive form ... to be born in this nation as white is the equivalent of getting a head start in the 400m relay we call life running gracefully with the most opulent shoes for support jumping over hurdles with an effortless ease coached by the best of the best your privilege awards you the golden ticket tell me why are you so reluctant in using it for justice? -c. alejandra