The impotent wishing for some merciful being to shut you off from the unremitting, almost daily mixture of frustration and despair it's been like this for too long you wake in the small hours wondering at the alarm to all but your inward ear seeking the tremor of hands that sudden cramp which you stretch your limbs the salty trajectory of the tears all those times when that faceless one pounced and still, in ready ambush, lies and that lost soul sets your pulse to fast and deep inside you full of impotence, cries