sometimes i wish you'd keep it to yourself
say all the nice things and just stop
not ruin the moment with your criticisms
not see a minor mistake and cut me off
wish you'd just let me be happy
even if for a single minute
even if i messed up
even if you're foaming at the mouth and livid
i just wish you could see more than my **** ups
more than the wrongs that i do
wish you'd be as generous with your grace
as i am with mine for you
i don't like wanting to avoid you
or thinking horrible things when you're close
i don't wanna become this mean person
got insults lodged in my throat
just waiting to be fired
like bullets in a gun
except i never wanted
to hurt anyone
so i am carrying a loaded rifle
trying not to accidentally shoot
you make it hard when you pick on me because it's just easy to
i want more for us
i want to respect you again
but that can only happen if
you lay down your weapons
and your words and your anger
and see me as a person
not as an object to ridicule
not as something to make perfect