There's a dark, empty feeling taking hold of me. There is only so many times you can fake a smile. Silent breakdowns in the dead of the night, Just so no-one can see that I've become so weak.
I didn't think I would relapse this hard, After a year or two I didn't want to fell back at the start, But now I've become accustomed to starving myself And hurting whatever part of me I can hide.
There's an unnerving tention inside of me Feeling overwhelmed at almost everything around. The only think that keeps me feeling alive Is feeling the pain whilst watching everyone live a successful life...
Things have been getting really difficult the past week or so, it seems to have hit really bad out of nowhere. I feel like after a year of a wobbly recovery, I'm heading back to square one. Nothing has ever felt so scary...