13/5/2020
It's 18:00
I text my boyfriend
I had a fight with my parents
and I'm done with this ****

It's 21:24
I text my boyfriend again
How much I love him,
Thankful to have him
And I leave

It's 21:43
I just sent my last few texts
No paragraphs anymore
"I'm gonna be alright"

It's 21:44
I walk into the bathroom
And grab the razor from the shower
I didn't leave a note

It's 21:50
I'm on the bathroom floor
I pushed but the razor wasn't big enough
There's no blood

It's 21:58
I go back to my room
This will never work
I'm useless
It takes a while before i'm able to say anything

It's 22:00
My boyfriend has since called 3 times
And sent 21 messages
I read the first 4

It's 21:10
I'm back online
I text my boyfriend back
That I'm sorry, and still here
My boyfriend called 911

It's 21:14
Downstairs I hear the phone ring
I can't hear what they're saying but
My dad walks up the stairs and back
"she's in bed"

It's 21:15
My mom pulls me out of bed
She demands an explanation
I can't even speak

It's 21:25
Two cops arrive at my door
They try to talk to me
But all they do is agree with my parents
But I'm used to that by now

It's 23:00
The cops wanna leave and I run off to bed
My mom thinks I'm gonna jump because I opened the window

It's 23:04
I text my boyfriend again
We're both scared
But it's okay

It's 23:20
The cops just left

It's 02:00
I'm still sobbing
Like usual