i was blinded by your light,
a ray of sunshine, in this grey
i forgot how much i needed you,
was it love
was it a desire or was it pain.
you were distant, sometimes close , confusion prevailed.
i saw your face, and my day went well
i heard you talk and i fell further
my barriers, which i cant overcome, have made me who i am
yet i melt them down for you.
i wish we never meet,  i wont be able to hold back
people will tell me
go for it, tell her, whats the harm
they don't understand
they don't know you, they think you are like the others
sometimes i wonder what we would be together.
will it be easy like the others say, or will it all fall down
will i be good, will you be who i think you are
maybe i don't want to find out
i have loved you for far too long now
for wherever i go, you attached a small part to me
i berate myself, for i am a fool
she dosen't like you, you are just another wave in the ocean,
i know
maybe i will live my whole life watching her drift away
should have taken the chance, should have at least told her
no
i will not spoil this
this thing which holds me back
this thing which blinds me
this thing which i cant overcome
one day i will regret my choices
and you will be in someone else's arms whom you actually love
but just remember
you were someones love, you were his happiness
his smile, his despair and finally his doom.