The first thought is the enlightened one and the second thought is the Buddha one and both are bothered by doubts so I don't know which thought to follow
And Bob Dylan sang "Don't think twice, It's allright" but I've been puzzled about that advice all my life
so it strikes me that where I am is where I am and what I do is what I do
it's probably just perfect that way but as a Zen master said, "There's still some room for improvement!"