It was but a rising tide than an explosion, Bringing life to a halt, but still we endure, Time was always a luxury I couldn't afford, Now that I have so much of it I fail to be cured, Cured of this stillness that resides within me, Courage to create eludes and blankness stares back from the mirror, Am I just a shadow of who I once was? Was I once a shadow mistaken for light? A distant audience to my own mediocre life, All that I learned goes to waste in the dungeons of my mind, Everything new spills out for no more can be accommodated within, Does everyone else too feel bleak like a dying tree? Is it me who is just dead inside, So self absorbed and blinded to my surroundings, Washed in self pity that I can't see what lies at the next step, Then again why do I believe a word I say, When this sadness has become my security blanket.