I am drowning. But I won't let any one know. There's no need to let it show. I can hide it behind my smile. Or I can bury it deep where no one can see.
"It's okay."
I say to myself. I'll draw a smile to remind me that it's okay.
To be alone in this sadness is a familiar scene. It has happened many times before. So there's nothing new about this now. I've been sad before. I've been sad a million times before.
And I've managed to stay afloat. Paddling in the water for as long I can remember. Keeping my chin above the water. Gazing up at the stars in the night sky.
"Stay above the water."
I reminded myself.
But now my arm has gone numb. The cold water pulls me deeper. Darkness embraces me. I am tired. And the stars in the sky are saying goodbye.
"I am drowning." "And no one will ever know."
Because when the sun comes up tomorrow. I'll put on a smile and I'll lie to myself that I am fine.