I made a wrong turn
In a coffee craving rage
I ended up behind the park
where we used to play
The fence collapsing in on itself
And a freshly graffitied pavilion
It was brand new; white and green
When we were kids
But things seem to have
taken a new look since then

I fell asleep
In the center of a stressful afternoon
Chaos spiraling all around me
Hidden under the darkness of closed eyelids
I saw your feet aligned with mine
Memories very rarely wander into dreams
But here we were,
Our eyes still unsure
We walked pretty **** far for an iced tea
At that corner store
But looking back, I don't think it was the
iced tea that we were walking for

I threw my wallet out on the counter
Dreaming of inhaling the first of a fresh pack
I was on my way to work
But I was thinking of heading back
Your senior picture came shooting out from under
my ID in front of the register
You're outside your old house
Leaning against your Dad's garage
I think one of our friends did the honors
An awkward smile
And a broken wrist
Dark skin
Pale eyes

Today I looked for pieces of you
All over the floors
And the walls
Of my skull

Since you've slipped away
I've been afraid for you to see
how wrong you were about me
I'm not strong
I'm not okay
I'm not intuitive
I'm not brave
I'm not omniscient
I'm not angelic

And I'm not a poet...
I can't even articulate to you
how far I've fallen
I can't even find the right words
to prove to you that
I still miss you
That I still need you