This is something I need to share
While the world holds far, I hold close the Lord near
Yet I am weary and I get very teary
I am currently on a Temporary Furlough collecting unemployment
This life, there is really no enjoyment
I feel like I am in *******
In fact, it feels like being in hostage
I know I am not the only one
I feel my life is truly over and done
I think suicide throughout and don’t want to be among
Yet I know God is able
But it’s gets harder to be stable
I feel I am under punishment
I try to continue to put God as a commitment
But even with that, I am not assured
Yes, I pray and read the Bible in scriptures involving the Lord
But I am still not assured
I am a Born Again Christian and have been for many years
I still have no idea in these times in why I even still preserver
I know God is in control
Between Trump and the Media makes it harder to take hold
I am thinking at this moment to stop doing my bus dedication, writing which I enjoy
Perhaps I should be drowning with the outbound tide
Why should I live and even try
My inner soul right now is in a cry
I really need encouragement
Friends who I thought were friends don’t even call
I have been a true friend to all
However, I am not lonely
My tomorrow seems an end
I can’t even amend
Others constantly say I am blessed
But my mind says I could care less
Again, I need true encouragement
I need words that I can use to guide me
I know there is a world the Lord wants me to continue to see
For right now, I will just let be.