got me thinking i disappoint too easily
because i expect minimal consideration
like i'm overly needy for wanting you to apologize
or at the very least hoping for an explanation
sick of feeling like i'm crazy
for demanding basic human kindness
i've bled out on your altar many times
only to feel abandoned in times of crisis
this cycle where i give and you take
is unhealthy and unsustainable
it might come as a surprise to you
but i am, in fact, quite breakable
everytime you raid my shelves
for understanding and support
and only give me an echo of a half-hearted thanks in return
as you rush out the door
you build up this negative balance
that doesn't just disappear when you leave
while you're out there spending all my love
the feeling of debt swallows me
and with all my heart i wish
there was some other way
but you're not mature enough to understand
why i even want things to change
when i go you'll want me back
but not because you actually miss me
you'll miss the way i treated you
the way i always made things easy
but i'm tired of things
being like that
i want to be around people
who want me back