how do i delete myself
i am not pretty like the others
or smart
or ready

keep looking at these pictures
seeing all the ways i've fallen short

can't feel any feelings
because i don't wanna know
if they see me
like i see me

can't imagine
shaking off the clothes
in front of someone else
afraid they'll be repulsed
because i am not perfect

oh
i'm trying
but everytime i feel comfortable
in my skin
with myself
i expose myself
to those things i know will shatter
my safety
my confidence

i know it's not right
but i want to feel loved
and sometimes i think that would fix me