the longer i spend time by myself
the more i notice
how desperate i am
truly hopeless
i know its pointless
but i still dream
there'll never be a day
i don't believe
one day it will all
end up okay
somehow somewhere
someday some way
gotta exhale
and think good thoughts
remember i'll get there
though today i'm not
cause if i just
settle with perpetual pain
i'll never live
a happy day


and quite literally
to put it bluntly
i simply ******* refuse