I'm going to have to be the one No one else can save me, not one human on the earth has the time to constantly be along someone's suffering side So it'll be me, to do the duty on myself, to get through this never ending battle & I'll be stronger at the end of it But it's just so hard to do it alone while feeling so alone, it even hurts to know that there are not many people who consistently reach out enough to grab me, to lift me up and get me going I'll have to be the one I'm me, no one else can do it for me, independency But when you've spiraled down into such a deep dark place and you try to get out, every inch doesn't feel that much closer to the light I fall back in the mud again Just to fail once more To be a failure again To repeat the cycle again To never get out To be stuck Stuck in the mud that I fell in Thank god it's not quick sand If it was, I'd never get out That's how I know there's hope There's gotta be Nothing lasts forever Besides life Life is infinite Infinity is what? People keep on smiling and thats great, no jealousy, just envy for their days that keep on going, their routines and lives that are naturally just flowing, while I space out & sit in silence and wait to disappear in a sphere that's not crystal clear My bones ache and for gods sake, I try my hardest to appreciate That I'm alive today Even though my days are grey Getting out of bed never felt so hard It's like I've lost all my strength & the power of my body and mind I'm lost, but no ones there to find me, I'll be here to find me, there's a little hope inside of me Reading is such a chore, since i lose track of everything, feeling like a bore No energy to take care of me, well this is how it'll have to be, but hopefully.. this is just temporary.