I know I've said thing I never intended to say, but that didn't stop the impulsive wave. The fight happened after a pre-fight. What's wrong with me when i know this isn't right. I bought a brand new laptop, and it's just sitting because I'm afraid to back track the conversations. What a humiliation. Will someone help me, I'm vulnerable and hating everything. Woke up with positive vibes. Still didn't stop a daily cry. Why?