I have been there hurting quite much too.
I have lost so much in my life here also.
Yet it has only made me even stronger.
I was feeling so worthless and hopeless.
But looking back at my past life here.
It only made me stronger, as well as my Hope.
I see now that God has been carrying me.
For quite some time and He loves you too.
My Hope now and my Faith are at their strongest.
I pray that you shall become stronger as well.