Watch the door
Maybe something will come in
I am not sure what yet
My heart is palpitating
My mind is falling apart
I want to scream
But my parents might wake up
I want to cry
But im scared that if the tears block my view
Something could get me
I'm losing it
Everyday feels the same
This loneliness is terrifying
I have never been so scared of the darkness
I used to embrace it
But now it scares me
The silence is too much to bare
What if I lose my mind when the music stops
I don't want to dream
They **** with me
What if I wake up and no ones there
And they only appear to hurt me
I am truly scared
It makes it hard to breathe
I feel tired
But erratic
I wish everything could go away when I wanted
These thoughts I have
They are ruining everything
It makes it so hard to do anything
I feel dead
And trapped
Yet lost all at once
I cant handle this **** much longer
Everything is a mess
Label me depressed
Label me anxious
It means nothing to me
I am just trying my best
But I cant do this much longer
And I know I have said that before
But this time it feels real
I think my opportunities are nearly gone