it is physical pain
it is literally ripping me apart
an animal
it wants me dead
and i wish i were

it is a toxin
injected in my lungs
my throat burns
with things
i cant say

it is heavy
and black in my stomach
i cant eat
it will **** me
and i cant leave him again

it is a tumor
in my brain
swelling
and filling my skull
but i feel empty

it is terrible
i cant do this
it
is
me