and for a moment there our hands almost touched
but I didn't know what to say
it was late and we were both drunk
the sky had been dark for hours
and everyone inside the house was loud and
I could barely hear myself think
and I wanted to tell you
so much it hurt my chest
and the ice unfolded in my stomach
and killed all the butterflies
but I knew you'd never think of me
that way and so we just sat
on the railing outside some kid's house
and I swallowed all the love I felt for you
bitter and writhing and alive in my throat
and stayed silent as the sun came up