Sometimes When I am sad I think of you And the broken English you used When your alcohol level Betrayed your defenses And allowed my memory to slip through When you told me how you felt As I lay in that darkened room And you were just an unruly shadow But I still flew with you. I was too young then To know how it would end So I believed in you As children are often wont to do Until another text Different in intent Showed me why A beautiful lie Is preferable to An eloquent truth.
Sometimes When I am sad I think of you And the shirt you wore That night, and the way your sweater Hung off your shoulders And how you never looked better Out of a uniform; And I remember your smell And the clash of sterile linoleum With your musky aftershave And it makes me sadder to know You were the only man Known by my nose And the only one Never to let it go.
Sometimes When I am sad I think of me Then, with my red coat And jeans, flashing a smile Because your eyes agree That I look pretty And that was the first time A man had ever spoken to me Wordlessly, with a language I could Understand, although now I canβt Remember the words To the conversation. And at night I try to remember Was it February or November? But all I know is By December The language I knew was dead.
And when I am sad I cannot get The words you said Out of my head.