It’s the end Or at least it’s coming soon Hopefully The bomb has gone off And only I am left Because I pushed everyone away I’m swimming in regret I’m drowning in self-hatred Because If I would have spoken up sooner Nothing would be bad If I had only done something I literally didn’t do anything At all I stood there I let it happen I let him hurt me And I was embarrassed To tell I was afraid that if I didn’t do what he wanted me too That he would take away my toys and yell at me How stupid does that sound? He takes away my computer privileges And my DS THAT’S what I was concerned about THAT is why I didn’t move Because I was afraid to get yelled at So I let him touch my body When I didn’t want him too I was young and very very dumb Sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve to live Because maybe I’m so damaged I could never make someone happy I could never be happy myself I have thoughts like that all the time But I know I can’t act on them Even though I want to I’m just struggling right now I don’t know But I can’t sleep I have nightmares about what happened About the occurrences About everything that's happened