May 2013
He asked me if I'm really as okay as I seem,
Surprised at the fact that I seem unchanged;
And I could honestly not answer that question,
Not to where he'd understand.
I knew going into the situation that rejection was likely,
But I just needed an answer.
So am I ok?
Well I'm not visibly down,
But I've stopped caring about things.
And I'm not crying,
But inside I'm burning.
So no, I'm not ok,
But I'm not not ok either.
I'm in this state of nothing.
And that's just ok.
Surprised at the fact that I seem unchanged;
And I could honestly not answer that question,
Not to where he'd understand.
I knew going into the situation that rejection was likely,
But I just needed an answer.
So am I ok?
Well I'm not visibly down,
But I've stopped caring about things.
And I'm not crying,
But inside I'm burning.
So no, I'm not ok,
But I'm not not ok either.
I'm in this state of nothing.
And that's just ok.
I recently asked someone out who I've been close with for awhile. As I knew was likely, I got rejected. My best friend knew how much it meant to me and he was pretty shocked at how okay I seemed today. So he had to ask of I'm really as alright as I seem; I am and I'm not. I'm definately not as ok as I appear but I guess I'm just good at wearing a mask (title reference)
