I was bad
I didn’t listen
He was evil
I didn’t speak up
I stood there
For what seemed like hours
For hours
I waited
Outside of my body
Not the same person was left there
A girl trying her hardest not to cry
A girl fake smiling to get him to leave
A girl trying her best to survive
I can still see that girl in my mind
I pray for that girl
I did all the wrong things
I got caught
I got in trouble
I had to pay the consequences
Even though what I did wasn’t his business
Even though it really wasn’t that bad
But he said it was
He said this was the punishment to my crime
Fixing the fences
And because I was so good and didn’t talk back
He’ll let me inside his house
For a glass of water
Then shower and change my clothes
To give him a back rub
To try on his daughter's clothes in front of him to take home
Did I do wrong?
When all I did was stand there?
When I said “it’s okay” when he said “sorry”
Is it my fault that I didn’t say no?
I was stuck there
I felt like I couldn’t move
All I had to do for focus on surviving this moment
He told me I was lying
When I wasn’t
All of this happened
And I can see it in my mind so clearly
I can see everything
I relive it every night
I see it during the day
When I space off
I can see his face in the distance
I can see him behind closed eyes
I’m scared in public places
I’m scared everywhere
Because of what I’ve been through