If you were going to **** yourself, how would you go about it? Lately I've been analyzing it more than what I usually did, I thought those thoughts were dead, but they aren't, they simply left for a bit of time, call it vacation, and are back ready to mess around. So many of the writers I admire went through with it, suicide, perhaps we share the same nature. Someone once told me that suicide was for cowards, I shook my head and told him: No. Do you hold the courage to end your own life? On the contrary, suicide is bravery to an extreme. I'm not brave enough yet, it's not death I fear, it's the unknown of what's to come after the act's been done. When you think about things you notice our insignificance. Forgive me for saying so but I'll probably go out with a bang.
2011. Something just happened. I thought I'd post this oldie, it's reflecting the feelings that have taken over me at this moment. I'll be alright. I just wish that things wouldn't be like this.