I wish I could be
Unbothered
Or at least think a little less.
Anything but the noise that happens in my head.
A vicious cycle,
The more I try not to feel something
The more I feel it.

I close my eyes and imagine
That I’m one of those cool, carefree girls
The kind who effortlessly glide their way
Through conversations.
The kind who would never spend so much time
Fretting over little words,
Perceived missteps.

What I wouldn’t give
To be thoughtless sometimes.
Not permanently,
But even just for a day.
I’d do anything
To flip the switch,
To be able to know what it’s like
To float through life
And be unbothered.